I start this "blog-thing" at such a bittersweet time. We just celebrated Zach and Charlie's 5th birthday yesterday with a really fun pizza cooking party. The children were so well behaved and sweet...it makes me want to do it again (almost)!
I can't help but be up at 5 am after feeding Emily Kate because my mind is racing. Yesterday was a big one! Not only did we celebrate our oldest children's first BIG BOY birthday, but it was also Valentine's day. My heart was full. We had great friends at the party to celebrate, my parents were there helping like champs and Jay and I couldn't be more in love and lucky to have our three beautiful children.
I can't help but be up at 5 am after feeding Emily Kate because my mind is racing. Yesterday was a big one! Not only did we celebrate our oldest children's first BIG BOY birthday, but it was also Valentine's day. My heart was full. We had great friends at the party to celebrate, my parents were there helping like champs and Jay and I couldn't be more in love and lucky to have our three beautiful children.
As things had settled down for the night and we had finished our "nice" valentine's steak dinner,(on tv trays so we could watch our favorite shows-Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. Hey gotta do whatcha gotta do...we wanted to have a dinner and a movie, but Emily Kate needed to eat too...nothing like multi-tasking-right??) I looked at Emily Kate and asked Jay if we could keep her this way...she was so blissfully happy and peacefully asleep...that angelic look...it made me cry...to think that the boys were sweet angelic babies only 5 short years ago...I said to Jay it makes me scared to think how fast the next 5 years will go when we are celebrating the boys 10th birthday and EK's 5th.
Now don't get me wrong...I love every stage that the boys' have gone through...some more than others, but there have been highlights of every age that I wish that I could just hold onto a little longer...snuggles in the morning when they were just learning to climb up on the bed, their first words and the excitement of teaching them more...them developing their own tastes(Zach loves strawberry anything and pasta, Charlie loves anything chocolate and meat), hanging all over me and then watching them become so fascinated with their Daddy...those first hugs and kisses...those first giggles...now loving school and the wonders of making friends...
I look forward to all of those from EK, but I can't help wonder if everytime she goes through one of those favorite stages if I will have a tinge of sadness, mourning the passing of that stage of the boys...it all was such a blur for so long...I guess twins will do that to you...I hope to linger a little longer on those moments with EK...hold her a little longer, stare at her a little longer, make her giggle a little more...but as Jay said last night(he is such a smart, sensible guy) "You need to remember this feeling when you get overwhelmed about the house being clean...the dirty rug can wait a day so you can have fun...do crafts, go play with the boys...soon they are going to be on the go!"
So here's my new year's resolution for all the world to see:
So here's my new year's resolution for all the world to see:
IN 2009, I VOW TO PLAY WITH MY CHILDREN MORE EVEN IF IT MEANS THE HOUSE HAS TO BE MESSY!
I hope you will help me keep to this resolution...I know I will appreciate it when we are celebrating the next BIG birthday!
